Goodbye..

I choose to be tensed?
If so, I wouldn't even want to take that call from you.
If so, I wouldn't even want to listen to you.
If so, I wouldn't even want to talk to you.
If so, I wouldn't even want to be here.

If being tensed up is a choice, I would rather ignore ur call and just do nothing.
I would choose that.

You've pushed me too far this time.
Never a sorry for the things you did to me.
And I can easily give it for the things I've done.
I guess sorry is a very valuable word.
I dont deserve to have one.

I rather walk this road alone from now on.

Goodbye, this is where it all ends.

Toyed

you think I dont know?

do your thing behind me, hope that I wont find out.

how can I befriend the culprits that know all these things and never to think about me?

they contribute the hurting of your love one,

who is more important to you? love one? your friends?

you choose them over me. you tell me what am I supposed to do?

maybe I'll just let you teamed up with them and continue the hurting.

maybe I should just let you.

be with them, be free. let my misery go.

There won't be a thrid name.

Bonnie Parker and Clyde Burrows.

Two names,

Two persona,

Who am I?

Just a nobody.

then why, oh why can't I

somewhere over the rainbow,
way up high,
there's a land that i dream of,
once in a lullaby,

somewhere over the rainbow,
skies are blue,
and the dream that you dare to dream,
really do come true,

someday i'll wished upon a star,
and wake up where the clouds are far,
behind me,
where troubles melt like lemon drops,
high above the chimney tops,
there's where you'll find me,

oh somewhere over the rainbow,
bluebirds fly,
birds fly over the rainbow,
why then, oh why can't i..

I can't get this song of my head somehow, especially the glee version of it..

dreams do come true for some of us, at least mine had..
and its with you..

something happened and it might crush it..
terrible awful words uttered, apologies?.. it can't be reversed..
what said was said..

even if apology granted.. self forgiveness is an issue..

it's scarred. everything is..

________________________________________________________

as stupid as it sounds..
im actually distracting myself from missing you..

it's hard.. but i really wished you'll have fun without me.
then, maybe goodbye might not be hard..

I'll miss everything we shared, all of it..

I love you, all my heart.

memories of the past

things you saw,
things you said,
things you did,
things you felt,
things you experienced,
things you encountered,

every single thing happened in your life, there's memories of it,
fond or not fond of it, you somehow will miss the moments one day or another,
it is a part of you.

some of the things you mentioned that you miss, i can't helped feeling sad..

those are the moments.. that im not a part of you.

missing piece

If..

Someone told him that 'if' is a very irritating word and somehow, it fits perfectly on what running through his mind now.

He really thought that he is her missing piece of her jigsaw puzzle.

but is he the right piece that fits perfectly into the empty space?
or he isn't?

with him, appeared into her life..
does he made her life better?

maybe he did, and maybe he did not.

will she force the piece into the empty blank space even though it doesn't fit?

it's a choice

|| when you're being pushed away,

|| question is, will you go further away?

|| or you'll get close again?

it's not..

Maybe,..

you have just fallen..

it's not the same anymore..

How not to

I'm here and you're there.

in any word described, we're still being apart,

though it's temporary, my heart fond for you..

I've grown too attached to you..

missing you, tell me how not to..

Broken Hearts

New uprising star,

Greyson Micheal Chance

My Only

You worth every single sweat I sweat, every time I spent,
You worth everything of mine.

You mean the world to me,
You are the one that can make my heartbeat go fast and slow at the same time,

You are the one who I fell in love with,
You are the one who I want to be with..




Isn't she beautiful?

You're my only panda girl,
I love you.

On The Edge

and so, it goes..


boom!

What am I

Tired. Frustrated. Confused.

I've been always keeping things to myself. I never wanted to admit that I'm not capable of things. Always don't want them to worry about me and push myself to the limits. But today, that ego ate me up from the inside.

I easily frustrated over little things, and even lashed out on someone whom I love. Hurting her feelings and act as if I don't care. I seriously don't know what I am that moment. Words thrown out unlike myself, emotional unstable and everything.

I really confused now, I don't know what to do next.
I really don't know who I am now,

I've lost my way.

Mini

Introducing..

unauthorized photo :p

Mini and Mini mini !! :D

These pillows can really make one go krokk peacefully every night.

*smiles*

What makes this

Sometimes on some moments, I somehow felt left out on things. The feeling like I don't belong, like an outcast. It's like nobody is listening to you when you're talking, and your presence seemed to go with the wind, nobody cares. Even when sometimes we were to talk, I can't help feeling awkward. And sometimes, I even reluctant to start a conversation, words seemed to stuck and silence dots remains.


...

Silence

You'll never let me have a say,

Never.

Haircut !

I seriously need a haircut !

even Bakun got his haircut already..

and even he looks better now..

Dayout

Me: There's a new Baskin Robin in Sunway ! *pointing excitedly*

Mei: It's always been there.

Me: really? okay.. (-.-')..

Went to the cinema with family in Sunway Pyramid, its a mothers' day movie titled "Mother and Child". At the first half an hour through the movie, I really thought it would just be another movie that can put my mum to sleep again with all the talking, talking and talking. Surprisingly, my dad's the one who's out xD. But overall, the movie wasnt that bad. Got a hug from my sis right after the movie finished. (: it felt great.

"Time spent together is much more than blood ties" -Melissa

Somehow, I like this phrase from the movie. It was warm felt by me.

Fever

Exams !!

Exams will make you feel if you don't study for it, you'll die.. literally.
But, not me..

I've been reading this whole day,
Articles,
Comics,
Newspapers,
Magazines,
Story books,
Catalogs,
Food menus,
Digi bills,
and etc etc.

but not my notes..
I need help.. seriously..

Random

" Woody: Come on Jesse, you would give up everything just to spend one day with Emily again."

-quoted from "Toy Story 2"

You're where my book begins

It still feels the same whenever I read it,
fresh as it is.

friendship when it all started,
know not what future may bring,
hardships together we shared,
hearts slowly meet a longing.

i remember the first time,
i looked into your eyes,
the feelings made me
feel like there heaven in the skies.

your feelings i dare not rate,
moves i afraid to make,
chances i scared to take,
losing you is what i hate.

everyday heartache felt,
not knowing how you feel,
my heart for you it melts,
my feelings for you are truly real.

you are what i always seek,
regret i would not want,
chances taken in meek,
you are all that i really want.

you are always in my eyes,
feelings at heart it lies,
courage built and arise,
holding hands is when it ties.

you, the one i care,
love, floating in the air,
moments, together we share,
my love for you, will forever be there.

Always

"*JuNi3* says:
later I feel like im not on your mind"

It's not possible for me not to have you in my mind,

You, have always been in my mind,
I've think of you all the time,
No matter what happens,

You'll be always be in my mind,
always.

Desperation

There's always a picture,
it will always remind him,
that it was once,

how happy, stable and perfect it once was.

But, things changed,
it's gone, he ruined everything,
thrown everything away just like that.

Without thinking how precious it actually is for him,

His,
pride, ego, stubbornness, selfishness, anger,
led him to this corner.

Everything isn't right anymore,
Tears dried,
Hearts hardened,
Feelings numbed,

Can he salvage it back? He asked himself.

He grew desperate,

to restore everything,
back like it used to.

If he can't, please.. stay, even for awhile.

Disappointment

I've failed.

I said I'll wait,
but,
I've failed.

I said I would be better,
but,
I've failed.

I said I would tolerate,
but,
I've failed.

I said I would try to give in,
but,
I've failed.

I said I promised,
but,
I've failed.

In my mind, I always wanted things to turn out right,
but, all I've done is just sinking it even further than it was.

I've failed, terribly.

I..

I just can't stop thinking about you

.

.

.

.

I Miss You.

There's no turning back

At first,

I thought I can make you live your dreams,
You said I'm capable of doing so,

I've let you down, each and everytime,
I've only shown you,

my weaknesses, my shortcomings, my flaws,

I've crushed your hopes and dreams,
I've made you lose grip on what you held precious.

I can only live with regrets of things I've said and done,

If there's a chance to relive all the dark moments I created,
I want to make things right again.

I'm really losing you.
I can only say I'm sorry.

1st post!

Woohoo!!

Yes! I created a blog!
an achievement! :D

Now.. gonna have to stick with it..